Mmm

Haagen-Dazs Green Tea Ice Cream, oh my.

Newsfeed

I'm just a little sick of reading statuses in my facebook newsfeed of people bragging about the fact that they were smashed the other night.
That just screams their desire to be recognized for taking part in that teenage ritual.

Maybe sick of it is not the right thing to say. Frustrated. Sad.
I'm not sure if I'm one of the only ones who sees through it. Like does everyone else on facebook just fall for it and give that person more respect now, or do they see the weakness behind it. The pressure, the expectation, the status.

Blind.

I'm on a song lyric kick

I'm not sure how to introduce this. They're old feelings. Not dead feelings.

It's about.. Ya, I got nothing. Just read it.


I feel so helpless now, my guitar is not around
And I'm struggling with the xylophone to make these feelings sound
I'm remembering you singing, and I'm bringing you to life
It's raining out my window and today it looks like night


You haven't written to me in a week, I'm wondering why that is
Are you too nervous to be lovers, friendship ruined with just one kiss
I watched you very closely and I saw you look away
Your eyes are either gray or blue,
I'm never close enough to say 


Your sweatshirt says it all, with your hood over your face
I can't keep staring at your mouth without wondering how it tastes
I'm with another boy, he's asleep, I'm wide awake
He's tried to win my heart, but it's taken time


I know the shape of your hands, 'cause I watch them when you talk
I know the shape of your body, 'cause I watch it when you walk
I want to know it all, but I'm giving you the lead
So go on, go on and take it
Don't fake it. Shake it.


Don't second guess your feelings, you were right from the start
I notice she's your lover, but she's no where near your heart
This city is for strangers like the sky is for the stars
I think it's very dangerous if we do not take what's ours


I'm winning you with words, because I have no other way
I want to look into your face without your eyes turning away
Last night I watched you sing, because a person has to try
I walked home in the rain because a person cannot lie

 Gray or Blue - Jaymay

This is beauty.

Facing Forward

I've got money in my pockets
I like the colour of my hair
I've got a friend who loves me
I've got a house, I've got a car
I've got a good mother
And her voice is what keeps me here


Feet on ground
Heart in hand
Facing forward
Be yourself.
I've never wanted anything
No, I've never want anything
So bad.

Everybody folds for love

It wasn't supposed to be this way.

We were going to be young and naive forever... 

I'm A Dreamer

As humiliating as it might be to give something 100% and fall flat on your face,
It's gotta be more humiliating to not have the guts to go after something you want with 100%.

One More Time

You learn from your mistakes, right?
But if you don't act based on what you learned, you really didn't learn anything, did you?

You say, I'm never going to do that again.
And then you do it again.

Your heart still wants what it always wanted. You're just supposed to know that last time you gave in to what you wanted, it wasn't worth it.

So why am I about to do it again?

Cat Inspired.

There's been too many times when I walk in the door from school and see my cat sleeping on the couch. I know that's where he's been all day and I find myself extremely jealous.
I want to sleep, and eat, and not worry about anything at all. Be pet, and loved and fed. And sleep. All the time. It's so simple.

Life is heavy. Just living, everyday, with pressures and responsibilities and deadlines.
And time.

It never stops trudging forward, ever. No matter what.
Even if you really wanted it to.
That's a weird concept.
There's a lot of those, weird concepts.

I guess that's where the value in life comes from though. It wouldn't matter how you spent your time if your time wasn't spendable, wasn't here and then gone. Wasn't losable, waste-able.